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Summer is Officially Over.
Whoo! After a month full of fun, pressure and pleasure,
I am finally updating my blog.
I have many things to confess, to reveal, to rant and to share.
It was summer time yet I have had no time to update my blog. It is simply because my keyboard broke and I was having my vacation at our condominium at Avida towers, Paranaque. I had no internet connection and I was too lazy to go out.
A lot of things happened and a lot of things have changed. I am currently undergoing a drastic change in my life. First, Its about my college life then its about a friend of mine then its about living independently and lastly, its about my father, My long lost father.
Yes, Let me go into details. I am very much willing to confess, to reveal, to rant and to share these stories that are drastically changing/changed my current life.
These are long, long, long stories. I am warning you.
MY COLLEGE LIFE.
I had no idea that enrolling in college is so much pressure. My boyfriend and I had to go through twists and turns. I was lucky, I have him beside me. We are both Pre-Dent freshmen of Centro Escolar University Manila Campus. Goodluck for the both of us!
I am pretty much excited to start this new beginning. I simply cant wait.
No more school bus, Much more allowance. Sounds fun!
Hello Six years of pleasure and Fun!
My schedule is a little frantic. I will be experiencing being home at night.
See? Oh well. Tomorrow is the big day. I will be meeting my block mates and my professors. New friends, New challenges, New hardships, New endeavors, New life.
GOODLUCK to me!
A FRIEND OF MINE
..and I had a, what should I call it? hmm. Maybe, Conflict. Yeah, A friend of mine whose name I wont mention and I had a conflict. Friend of mine was really a good friend of mine. Friend of mine had helped me through life, highschool life and especially love life. Friend of mine's advices and opinions were always the basis of my decisions when it comes to my lovelife. I love friend of mine so much for being a friend to me. Friend of mine isnt the good type of friend, He/she was sarcastic, straight forward and sometimes unbearable but he was a GREAT FRIEND. Since then, I have considered friend of mine my best advicer and a FRIEND but I guess, Nothing is really constant in this world but change.
Friend of mine have said something about me that totally made me tormented. I will not go into details but I was hurt by what friend of mine have said but being a friend, I understood friend of mine. Friend of mine doesnt know anything about my plans and why I acted that way anyway. Maybe that was the reason why friend of mine have said something about me. Friend of mine have judged me only in the outside without overlooking in the inside. Friend of mine did not even confronted me. Enough said. This isnt the issue anyway, I understand that friend of mine doesnt know anything about my plans.
Okay.
The last days of our highschool life between me and my friend of mine was a total silence and a total blur. Hindi kami naguusap, nagpapansinan, nagbabatian o nagtitinginan man lang. I do not know. My friend of mine seems to have a problem, or a problem with me, I guess. At first, I thought friend of mine was just stressed or anything. So being a friend, I understood my friend of mine. Inintindi ko na lang na siguro may problema siya o stressed out lang. So I did not bother to ask my friend of mine because I thought it would just shrugged off. Maybe that was my fault, I did not confronted friend of mine earlier than I had confronted him/her. So maybe thats what made the situation worse.
One summer night, I tried to discuss things between Friend of mine and I. I asked friend of mine if he/she was busy or whatsoever, As far as I could remember friend of mine was on an outing. I thought it wasnt the best time to confront Friend of mine so I had put it up for next time.
So, Another summer night. I texted friend of mine, I told friend of mine that I already missed him/her and in return, I got a disturbing reply. Friend of mine was not interested but still, I confronted friend of mine. I asked what was going on between us, Why he/she was acting that way, or if there was any problem between us. I did got a reply, A straight forward reply.
Friend of mine said, If there was something wrong, Its not about us, but me. He/She said I have Attitude Problems toward them. Yes them, He/She said they are many. Its not only him/her but them. Friend of mine said that I should not bother to open the issue again. I was tormented again. The moment after I read the message, I immediately collected my thoughts and asked myself who's them, who are they, what attitude problem and what the fcuk is he/she was talking about. I cried that moment. I felt like something have strucked my heart. I was in pain. My friends are very important to me. I treat my friends like my own brother/sister. Especially FRIEND OF MINE. friend of mine have helped me so much. I couldnt afford to lose a friend like him/her but I ended our friendship, I thanked him/her for the wonderful times we had and his/her advices and our so called friendship. What He/she have said is enough for me to end that almost 3 years of friendship. If he/she was really a friend, If he/she really cares for me even just a little. He/she could have confronted me the moment he/she knew that there was something wrong to avoid anymore issues or to stop things to get worse. Am I right??? Thats what friends do. Right?
That moment, I could not trust any of my friends not even my bestfriend, my boyfriend. Friend of mine taught me one thing, Never love friends so much, Never put them close to your heart because one point in your life, It could kill you the moment you've been hurt because of that friendship.
I still have few real friends, I GUESS.
Miss Independent.
As the word itself, I am currently living without my family. This is very hard but I must get throught with it for my family's favor. The owner of the house that I am currently residing has a big sum of debt to my mother. So to keep things right, I have to stay in this house until the owner of this house pays my mother dear. Do you think living alone sounds fun? NO. I miss my family. I miss the things they do. My grandmother's yummy foods, My mother's advices and opinions and the yelling of my annoying but cute siblings. Even though they pisses me off most of the time, The love I have for them is unconditional. The only beloved I have now is Pancho, My baby dog. We've been together for 3 years now. I cant imagine life without my pancho.
Living alone isnt easy. I have no one to talk to in this house. Am I that desperate if I talk to my dog? hahaha. Lucky for me because I have a maid here. She takes care of everything. My food, my clothes, the cleaning and all. Living alone has advantage, It teaches me to be more responsible and even more confident about myself. Really, Miss Independent. :)
My long lost father.
How about next time?
I am not in the mood to talk about it now.
There you go, A dose of what happened to my life.
Well, The last part is for next time.
I am really excited for tomorrow. Tomorrow is a new beginning. :)
Labels: College, Friends, Love, Update
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Summer is Officially Over.
Whoo! After a month full of fun, pressure and pleasure,
I am finally updating my blog.
I have many things to confess, to reveal, to rant and to share.
It was summer time yet I have had no time to update my blog. It is simply because my keyboard broke and I was having my vacation at our condominium at Avida towers, Paranaque. I had no internet connection and I was too lazy to go out.
A lot of things happened and a lot of things have changed. I am currently undergoing a drastic change in my life. First, Its about my college life then its about a friend of mine then its about living independently and lastly, its about my father, My long lost father.
Yes, Let me go into details. I am very much willing to confess, to reveal, to rant and to share these stories that are drastically changing/changed my current life.
These are long, long, long stories. I am warning you.
MY COLLEGE LIFE.
I had no idea that enrolling in college is so much pressure. My boyfriend and I had to go through twists and turns. I was lucky, I have him beside me. We are both Pre-Dent freshmen of Centro Escolar University Manila Campus. Goodluck for the both of us!
I am pretty much excited to start this new beginning. I simply cant wait.
No more school bus, Much more allowance. Sounds fun!
Hello Six years of pleasure and Fun!
My schedule is a little frantic. I will be experiencing being home at night.
See? Oh well. Tomorrow is the big day. I will be meeting my block mates and my professors. New friends, New challenges, New hardships, New endeavors, New life.
GOODLUCK to me!
A FRIEND OF MINE
..and I had a, what should I call it? hmm. Maybe, Conflict. Yeah, A friend of mine whose name I wont mention and I had a conflict. Friend of mine was really a good friend of mine. Friend of mine had helped me through life, highschool life and especially love life. Friend of mine's advices and opinions were always the basis of my decisions when it comes to my lovelife. I love friend of mine so much for being a friend to me. Friend of mine isnt the good type of friend, He/she was sarcastic, straight forward and sometimes unbearable but he was a GREAT FRIEND. Since then, I have considered friend of mine my best advicer and a FRIEND but I guess, Nothing is really constant in this world but change.
Friend of mine have said something about me that totally made me tormented. I will not go into details but I was hurt by what friend of mine have said but being a friend, I understood friend of mine. Friend of mine doesnt know anything about my plans and why I acted that way anyway. Maybe that was the reason why friend of mine have said something about me. Friend of mine have judged me only in the outside without overlooking in the inside. Friend of mine did not even confronted me. Enough said. This isnt the issue anyway, I understand that friend of mine doesnt know anything about my plans.
Okay.
The last days of our highschool life between me and my friend of mine was a total silence and a total blur. Hindi kami naguusap, nagpapansinan, nagbabatian o nagtitinginan man lang. I do not know. My friend of mine seems to have a problem, or a problem with me, I guess. At first, I thought friend of mine was just stressed or anything. So being a friend, I understood my friend of mine. Inintindi ko na lang na siguro may problema siya o stressed out lang. So I did not bother to ask my friend of mine because I thought it would just shrugged off. Maybe that was my fault, I did not confronted friend of mine earlier than I had confronted him/her. So maybe thats what made the situation worse.
One summer night, I tried to discuss things between Friend of mine and I. I asked friend of mine if he/she was busy or whatsoever, As far as I could remember friend of mine was on an outing. I thought it wasnt the best time to confront Friend of mine so I had put it up for next time.
So, Another summer night. I texted friend of mine, I told friend of mine that I already missed him/her and in return, I got a disturbing reply. Friend of mine was not interested but still, I confronted friend of mine. I asked what was going on between us, Why he/she was acting that way, or if there was any problem between us. I did got a reply, A straight forward reply.
Friend of mine said, If there was something wrong, Its not about us, but me. He/She said I have Attitude Problems toward them. Yes them, He/She said they are many. Its not only him/her but them. Friend of mine said that I should not bother to open the issue again. I was tormented again. The moment after I read the message, I immediately collected my thoughts and asked myself who's them, who are they, what attitude problem and what the fcuk is he/she was talking about. I cried that moment. I felt like something have strucked my heart. I was in pain. My friends are very important to me. I treat my friends like my own brother/sister. Especially FRIEND OF MINE. friend of mine have helped me so much. I couldnt afford to lose a friend like him/her but I ended our friendship, I thanked him/her for the wonderful times we had and his/her advices and our so called friendship. What He/she have said is enough for me to end that almost 3 years of friendship. If he/she was really a friend, If he/she really cares for me even just a little. He/she could have confronted me the moment he/she knew that there was something wrong to avoid anymore issues or to stop things to get worse. Am I right??? Thats what friends do. Right?
That moment, I could not trust any of my friends not even my bestfriend, my boyfriend. Friend of mine taught me one thing, Never love friends so much, Never put them close to your heart because one point in your life, It could kill you the moment you've been hurt because of that friendship.
I still have few real friends, I GUESS.
Miss Independent.
As the word itself, I am currently living without my family. This is very hard but I must get throught with it for my family's favor. The owner of the house that I am currently residing has a big sum of debt to my mother. So to keep things right, I have to stay in this house until the owner of this house pays my mother dear. Do you think living alone sounds fun? NO. I miss my family. I miss the things they do. My grandmother's yummy foods, My mother's advices and opinions and the yelling of my annoying but cute siblings. Even though they pisses me off most of the time, The love I have for them is unconditional. The only beloved I have now is Pancho, My baby dog. We've been together for 3 years now. I cant imagine life without my pancho.
Living alone isnt easy. I have no one to talk to in this house. Am I that desperate if I talk to my dog? hahaha. Lucky for me because I have a maid here. She takes care of everything. My food, my clothes, the cleaning and all. Living alone has advantage, It teaches me to be more responsible and even more confident about myself. Really, Miss Independent. :)
My long lost father.
How about next time?
I am not in the mood to talk about it now.
There you go, A dose of what happened to my life.
Well, The last part is for next time.
I am really excited for tomorrow. Tomorrow is a new beginning. :)
Labels: College, Friends, Love, Update
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Real Name: Mary Angelbelle S. Dizon
Age: 17
Birth Date: September 19, 1992
School: Centro Escolar University
Course: Dentistry
I am Mary Angel but call me Ella. My BLOG documents my Bittersweet Life as a University Student, an intimidating Friend, a Loving Daughter, a Sweet Girlfriend and an Independent G I R L. This is my Web Journal where in all my thoughts, craves, rants and happenings in my life are posted. Constructive Criticism are highly appreciated! ♥
University Student ○ I am currently taking up DENTISTRY which is one of the difficult and the most expensive majors. At first, It was hard dealing with college life, the subjects along with the lessons and its quizzes and projects and of course, the professors and the grades, block mates and the school itself. but as the days go by all the pressure and pleasure, fun, hardships, trials and updates about being a College Student have a sense of fulfillment in the end! :)
Intimidating Friend ○ What is Friend? For me Friend is someone you have that knows how to deal with your drama in life. Someone who accepts you for who you are, Someone who isn't afraid of telling you your wrong doings, Someone who will never turn their back in spite of your mood swings and attitude problems. Someone who will always settle things with you. That's how I define FRIEND. You? How do you define FRIENDSHIP?
Loving Daughter ○ I love my family so much. They are the foundation of my own self. I am the eldest among the family. At this point of time, Pressure of being the eldest do not conquer me, YET. When I was younger, my grandmother nurtured me and took care of me when my Mom was away and still, nurturing and taking care of me at this point of time even Mom is already here for us. I owe my grandmother so much. Though I was spoiled by her in many ways and sometimes unintentionally made things difficult for her because of my wrong doings I still go back and make it up to her. She became a Mother, a Father and a Grandmother to me all at the same time. She's my inspiration in life.
Sweet Girlfriend ○ Oh yes, I am into a long term relationship right now, with my Best Friend. You read it right. Best Friends turned Lovers. Being in love with your best friend is good and easy and being in a relationship with your Best friend isn't better but the BEST! Friendship is a very good foundation of LOVE and I am very much happy to have a relationship with friendship as a foundation but of course, just like any love, Trials and Challenges still come along our way but everything's worth it.
My Dad once told me how they got my name. He said, When mom was laboring, He prayed to Mama Mary and the Angels for Mom's guidance. That's how I got, Mary Angel, from Mama Mary and the Angels and the Belle? Well, Dad said he got that from Mom's name: Bel.
Yes I know, I have a very long name. Haha.
Ella.
For the obvious fact that I have a very long name, I had difficulty choosing a name to call me, a nickname. Before it was Belle, then it turned to Elle and finally, I settled for one, ELLA. I love that name ever since. It was hard convincing people to call me Ella because they are all used to call me ANGEL but I know they'll get used to it. :)
- I was born 10:36 am at Olivarez Hospital, Paranaque.
- Christened at St. Andrew Church, Paranaque.
- I am the Eldest Child.
- I am the Eldest Grandchild.
- I am the Eldest Great Grandchild.
- I have no full siblings. - Unica Hija of my Parents but I have siblings on both sides now. :)
- I have two handsome brothers and one pretty sister ( Maternal ). - named Simon, Samuel and Sarah. I love them so much!
- I have a beautiful mother. - Of course, kanino pa ba ako magmamana? :)
- I have a boyfriend. - named Lloyd Philip Hamilton-brown Frilles. He's my bestfriend before he became my boyfriend. Cool right? :D
- Primary: El Nino de Salambao Academy, Paranaque
- Elementary: ENDSA and MES, BES.
- High School: PNHS, Angelicum College, Quezon City
- Academic and Special Awards: Best in Art (Kinder), Best in Science (Elementary) 1st runner up Miss Agham (Elementary), Most Courteous (Elementary), 2nd honorable mention (Elementary), Two 4th honorable mention (Elementary). (I had no awards in High school, AC is a non graded institution. )
- College: Centro Escolar University, Manila - Taking up Dentistry and currently on my 2nd year.
- Independent - I take care of myself, alone.
- Optimistic - I see things on the bright side whenever I have a problem.
- Sweet - I am sweet when it comes to the people I care about. So dont get me wrong.
- Loving - as much as possible I try showing my love but when I dont see anything in return, I might bounce back.
- Sarcastic - I use this to defend my self.
- Frank - When you get into my nerves I could tell the most hurtful word to you. " I say what I mean and mean what I say. "
- Vain - Well, I guess its just a part of being a GIRL.
- Stubborn - Yes. Very Stubborn and Bossy. I want what I want. ( You can ask my mom.)
- Dancer - I love dancing ever since. I just dont have that much passion to get into it.
- Wild - Wild in a sense that I am game for anything. :)
- Spoiled - I was spoiled when I was younger. Before, My grandparents almost give everything I want and need and that was lots of love! I am still spoiled right now, by Lloyd.
- Bitch - I hate people who hurts people's feelings. I stand up for them and that makes me a bitch to you.
- Opinionated - Beware: My opinion contains sarcasm, well not all the time. :D
- Health Freak - I am very much concern when it comes to my body. My hate list includes: Alcohol and Smoke, any kind of smoke.
- Confident - I believe Confidence is one of the most important attitudes of being a person without it you cannot achieve what you want.
- Loud - Only with my friends!
- Moody - Yes, Especially PMS days. My mood swings to one mood to another. At least, Lloyd can handle it. : p
- Sporty - I play badminton. I love swimming and hiking.
- Hard chick - I kick ass! : p
- Outgoing - Is wild and outgoing the same? :D
- Elegant - Simple yet Elegant, that's me! :D
- Mean - Yes, especially if you are also mean to me. I am meaner.
- High Maintenance - Very. Especially when it comes to myself. I have a high standard to the point that people get mad at me because of how I act. I just love myself so much, you know.
- Bestfriends turned Lovers - We were best friends for more than 2 years before we actually had love feelings for each other. The feeling was mutual.
- It wasn't easy - It was really hard because I had a current relationship back then. The story? Here.
- Months of Trials and Hardships - Before we moved in to the next stage, We went through ups and downs to finally be together and I gave him so much challenges to prove himself to me. It was really hard because I was always misunderstood by people and sadly, my own friends for giving him hard time and extreme difficulties and for the fact that my grandmother wont approve to our relationship that time made it all worst but later, my grandmother did understood me.
- April 29, 2009 - We became Official. :) I finally ended all his miseries. ( As if it was very hard. Hahaha ) The story? Here.
- Blissful - For me, A relationship with your best friend is the most blissful relationship. It maybe hard for us at the start but the reward of trials and hardships is incomparable. Why? Its all because of FRIENDSHIP! The foundation of your love is friendship. I tell you, In a relationship like this you have to be open and optimistic. Just like any relationship, this also have downfalls but if you think ahead and look into the brighter side you can surpass anything that gets into your way. Remember: Do not get afraid of committing just because you are afraid of losing the friendship. You have to take the risk if you want to be happy. Truly HAPPY. :)
PERSONAL.
- My Family - My Dad, Mom, Simon, Sarah, Samuel and my Grandmother. :)
- Lloyd! ♥
- Pancho - My 4 year old mini pincher. He's my baby dog!
- Hello Kitty - I love her ever since. GAAAH. Give me more kitties.
- Butterflies
FOOD.
- Dimsum
- Sushi
- Pasta
- Bulalo
- Beef Steak
- Sarsa Iglesia
- Buttered Crab and Shrimp
- Corn
- Mango and Strawberry
- Desserts
- Anything that my lola cooks. ♥
TECHY.
- Cybershot Camera
- iPhone
iPodUnderwater CameraPSPNokia N70- Laptop
- Subaru Impreza WRX or Mazda 3
PLACES.
- My Bedroom - My heaven.
- Puerto Galera
Cebu - Lived here for three years.
Bohol - I saw dolphins here! :)
- Palawan
Hongkong - I love ocean park.
- Japan - Madaming Hello kitty dito!! GAAAHH.
- Korea
- Paris
- Enchanted Kingdom - 1st anniversary plan. ♥
- Cockroaches - as in capital I-P-I-S!
- Pollution - Pollution makes me poor. I waste all my money for a taxi fare just because I hate smokes so much. It gives me headache. Grrr. Cant the authorities do something about it?
- Cigarette's smoke - Nahihilo ako.
- Dance Club - Not that I hate dancing and mingling with people. I just hate loud music. It gives me migraine.
- Coward - People who cant even face me. As in face to face and just keep on talking behind my back are pathetic.
- Walk out - I hate it how people walk out when they are face to something they cant stand.
I know this is pretty long but still,
I'm happy I was able to express myself in words. :D
- Ella Dizon
" Doll Outside, Devil Inside. "
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Ella. εїз 17. Independent. Virgo. Eldest. Taken. Escolarian. Optimistic. Sweet. Frank. Vain. Spoiled. Opinionated. Confident. Loud. Moody. Outgoing. Girly. Elegant. Mean.
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Strings Attached.
Seniors IX: Lets keep in Touch.
Graduation Day.
Eat Bananas and live healthy.
Summer Fun @ our Condo.
Seniors Day.
60 things.
Caleruega Retreat House.
La Salle VS. FEU: Game 3 & Mister Kabab.
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