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I cried and cried and cried Nakita ko nang medyo maaga si suitor. nakita namin siya ni louise sa cuenco gate. pero kami hindi niya kami nakita. okay lang. because i thought makikita,kakausapin niya din ako sa flagcem. pero mali pala ako. wala siya sa line nung flagcem. hinayaan ko na lang. okay lang sakin un. buong flagcem hindi niya ako kinausap o nilapitan man lang. okay lang. out of sight din naman siya eh. ayy eto CHIKA ko. GLOBAL WARMING. Yan. ang TOPIC namin sa flagcem kanina. ano nga bang alam natin tungkol sa global warming? kayo anong alam nyo tungkol sa global warming?? imagine. ano na ang magiging buhay nang anak nang anak nang anak natin? teka. anong tawag n10 dun? apo sa tuhod nang tuhod? hihihi. ayy ewan. :] ayun. pagkatapos nang flagcem. kinausap at nilambing ko pa si Ms.Tuyogon. our p.e facilitator. dahil siya ay nagtatampo sa akin. siya ay galit(galit daw pero nakangiti tsaka kinakausap pa din ako. hehe) i need to confront her because of the deed I did. hahaha. eh kasi nung WNCAA pinagalala ko siya. hindi kasi ako sumabay sa service. pinabalik pa nila ung driver para lang mahanap ako. I am really ashame of what I did. eh kasi naman nung pagbalik ko wala na sila. hinahanap ko sila kaso hindi ko na sila nakita. kaya ayun. nag SM na ln kami ni kenneth. nagusap at nakipag ayos. yah. you heard it right. nagkita kami ni kenet sa ninoy aquino stadium. biruin mo! sa LAKI at DAMI nang tao. nagkita pa kami. un ba ang tawag mong TADHANA? charing! hahaa.. ang cheesy. pero GRABE talaga. unbelievable. unexpected. HOST kasi ang lyceum. required silang pumunta. EVERYTHING is okay.
we're FRIENDS. and thats how it ENDS.
back to Ms.Tuyogon. sabi niya. hihihi. may kasalanan daw ako. I need to repay her daw. hala. lagot ako. hihihi.. I need to make lambing ulit to her para makabawi na ako sa kasalanan ko. :] I need to regain that SOMETHING I lost from her. after flagcem. we headed straight to sto.domingo church. instituitional mas kasi. Pero aun. umiral na naman ang pagka irresponsible ko. i am the President of SCA-UC. and we are the one who always needs to manage whenever a mass is being held. ayon ulit. di ko mahanap ang mga inassign kong mag collector at mag usher. wala silang lahat. imagine. president pa naman ako tapos ako pa ung pabaya! adik! naiinis ako. pero buti na lang kasi ung mga teachers ung naging collectors at ushers. hehehe. ligtas kami. pero still. I am so irresponsible. nakita ko si suitor sa church. tinawag ako at pinaupo sa tabi niya. umupo ako pero kelangan ko ding umalis kasi pinatawag ako ni ms.miguel.our cle facilitator. kaya ayun. pinaiwan ni suitor ung bag ko. sa likod kami umupo ni shobe ria and the rest of the gang. ayy. shobe. "HAPPY 1ST MONTHSARY!!" hehhehe. hapi kau ah. seven. ganda talaga nang number na yan. ehhehe. ano kayang meron sa SEPTEMBER 7? o kaya sa OCTOBER 7? nyahahhaha. except sa monthsary nyo. ahihih.. ayun. nasa likod namin ang seniors ko. ang mga sir ko sa SAS. goodthing I wore my headband. hehehe. pagkatapos nang mass. nakita ko si suitor. bitbit ang bag at folder ko. hihihi. tinawag ko siya. at sabi niya. "wala! pinaghintay mo ko. hinintay kita buong mass. hindi ka naman bumalik."
ahihihi. sorry suitor. hindi na kasi ako makabalik eh. sorry talaga. hehehe. kaw naman ang bilis mo magtampo. hehhehe. :] tapos ayun. ewan ko. hindi ko na maalala kung bakit bigla ko siyang iniwan at hindi nilingon ang tawag niya. bakit nga ba? ehhehe. di ko na maalala. basta alam ko. nagpapalambing lang ako. hahaha. akala niya tuloy umiiwas ako. nako. bakit naman ako iiwas.
GEOMETRY CLASS. ewan ko na naman kung bakit hindi ko siya kinakausap at kung bakit hindi ako nagpaturo sakanya. the next thing I knew. I was leaning on the shoulder of jahnomi. crying and telling her the way I feel. and my thoughts.
I cried and cried. until Ms.Nadala asked me to go to the SLO. buti na lang hindi halata na umiiyak ako. :] ayoko sabihin kung bakit ako umiyak. basta it has something to do with my PAST. my bitter past.
after that. I hugged my bestfriend. Lloyd. that was the very 1st time I hugged a guy after my 1st break up. and that was the very 1st time I hugged him. ewan ko. all of the sudden napayakap at napaiyak ako kay lloydie lloyd. He did not comfort me. thats all I can recall. I went out and headed straight to COMP class without my suitor. I just dont want him to see me crying. crying because of my PAST.
hanggang sa BEC ndi kami nagpansinan ni suitor. thats what made him think na iniiwasan ko siya. Hindi ako umiiwas. gusto ko lang maliwanagan. PERIOD. uwian na kami nagpansinan. he stayed a little longer. and we talked about the things that should be cleared.
Okay na naman. I explained everything. but I did not tell him the truth. the reason why I cried in GEOM class. ayoko kasing sabihin. baka mahurt siya or something. It is better Left unspoken.
may binigay ako sakanya. NO. may pinatago ako sakanya. maliit na HEART. at sabi ko sakanya. dalin niya un araw-araw. anytime hahanapin ko yun sakanya. kapag nawala un para niya na rin sinabi na wala akong halaga sakanya.at kapag hindi niya dala un kapag hinanap ko sakanya. hindi ko siya papansinin nang buong araw. ang arte noh? pero may plano talaga ako sa heart na yun. this is my challenge for him. :] hehehe. sasabihin ko na lang kung ano ung plano na un kapag nagawa ko na.
then. umuwe na siya. after awhile. umuwe na din ako. hindi niya ako hinatid noh? ayaw ko pa kasi magpahatid eh. saka na lang. kapag. WALA. hehehe. tsaka kasi ung bahay nila sa likod lang nang school. :] tumawag siya sa bahay. pinabago ko ung "love you" nya. sabi ko. love you is totally different from I LOVE YOU. kaya ayon. sabi niya. in a very mahinhin voice.
"I... Love... You..."
oo na. kilig ako ulit. hehehe. gua ai di michael. un lang masasabi ko. hihihi. michael na tawag ko skanya. Charles Michael Co Gaw kasi siya. eh gusto ko unique ako. hehee. gs2 ko naiiba ung tawag ko sakanya. dati inisip ko kung ano ba ang tawag sa lalaking intsik. kung may CHEKWA. ano naman sa lalaki? CHEKWO? ang panget. hehee.. kaya wala akong ibang maisip kungdi ang MICHAEL. ehehhehe. michael co? hehehehe. uyy. middle name nya un. hindi un parang honey co o baby co at kung ano2 pa. hhehehhe.
narinig niya kaya ung sinabi kong.
"mami2ss kita..;]"
sa fone ko un sinabi. hehehe.
sa chat naman. c reinard. pilit akong kinukulit. sagutin ko na daw si suitor.
sabi ko naman. kitty: noh ka ba. ilan araw pa ln xang nanliligaw noh. kitty: 7 days pa ln bading. kitty: ndi dahil gs2 niya ako gs2 ko siya. sa2gutin ko na siya. take it easy and slow. walang dahilan para magmadali. :]kitty: tsaka. pa2hirapan ko muna siya. ahihihi.. JOKE! kitty: hahaha.. dont rush me. or should I say dont rush us. ehhehe. kitty: haaay nako. basta. right time will come. thats how my day ended. malungkot na masaya. :]
pinkaLoo just posted her thoughts!
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I cried and cried and cried Nakita ko nang medyo maaga si suitor. nakita namin siya ni louise sa cuenco gate. pero kami hindi niya kami nakita. okay lang. because i thought makikita,kakausapin niya din ako sa flagcem. pero mali pala ako. wala siya sa line nung flagcem. hinayaan ko na lang. okay lang sakin un. buong flagcem hindi niya ako kinausap o nilapitan man lang. okay lang. out of sight din naman siya eh. ayy eto CHIKA ko. GLOBAL WARMING. Yan. ang TOPIC namin sa flagcem kanina. ano nga bang alam natin tungkol sa global warming? kayo anong alam nyo tungkol sa global warming?? imagine. ano na ang magiging buhay nang anak nang anak nang anak natin? teka. anong tawag n10 dun? apo sa tuhod nang tuhod? hihihi. ayy ewan. :] ayun. pagkatapos nang flagcem. kinausap at nilambing ko pa si Ms.Tuyogon. our p.e facilitator. dahil siya ay nagtatampo sa akin. siya ay galit(galit daw pero nakangiti tsaka kinakausap pa din ako. hehe) i need to confront her because of the deed I did. hahaha. eh kasi nung WNCAA pinagalala ko siya. hindi kasi ako sumabay sa service. pinabalik pa nila ung driver para lang mahanap ako. I am really ashame of what I did. eh kasi naman nung pagbalik ko wala na sila. hinahanap ko sila kaso hindi ko na sila nakita. kaya ayun. nag SM na ln kami ni kenneth. nagusap at nakipag ayos. yah. you heard it right. nagkita kami ni kenet sa ninoy aquino stadium. biruin mo! sa LAKI at DAMI nang tao. nagkita pa kami. un ba ang tawag mong TADHANA? charing! hahaa.. ang cheesy. pero GRABE talaga. unbelievable. unexpected. HOST kasi ang lyceum. required silang pumunta. EVERYTHING is okay.
we're FRIENDS. and thats how it ENDS.
back to Ms.Tuyogon. sabi niya. hihihi. may kasalanan daw ako. I need to repay her daw. hala. lagot ako. hihihi.. I need to make lambing ulit to her para makabawi na ako sa kasalanan ko. :] I need to regain that SOMETHING I lost from her. after flagcem. we headed straight to sto.domingo church. instituitional mas kasi. Pero aun. umiral na naman ang pagka irresponsible ko. i am the President of SCA-UC. and we are the one who always needs to manage whenever a mass is being held. ayon ulit. di ko mahanap ang mga inassign kong mag collector at mag usher. wala silang lahat. imagine. president pa naman ako tapos ako pa ung pabaya! adik! naiinis ako. pero buti na lang kasi ung mga teachers ung naging collectors at ushers. hehehe. ligtas kami. pero still. I am so irresponsible. nakita ko si suitor sa church. tinawag ako at pinaupo sa tabi niya. umupo ako pero kelangan ko ding umalis kasi pinatawag ako ni ms.miguel.our cle facilitator. kaya ayun. pinaiwan ni suitor ung bag ko. sa likod kami umupo ni shobe ria and the rest of the gang. ayy. shobe. "HAPPY 1ST MONTHSARY!!" hehhehe. hapi kau ah. seven. ganda talaga nang number na yan. ehhehe. ano kayang meron sa SEPTEMBER 7? o kaya sa OCTOBER 7? nyahahhaha. except sa monthsary nyo. ahihih.. ayun. nasa likod namin ang seniors ko. ang mga sir ko sa SAS. goodthing I wore my headband. hehehe. pagkatapos nang mass. nakita ko si suitor. bitbit ang bag at folder ko. hihihi. tinawag ko siya. at sabi niya. "wala! pinaghintay mo ko. hinintay kita buong mass. hindi ka naman bumalik."
ahihihi. sorry suitor. hindi na kasi ako makabalik eh. sorry talaga. hehehe. kaw naman ang bilis mo magtampo. hehhehe. :] tapos ayun. ewan ko. hindi ko na maalala kung bakit bigla ko siyang iniwan at hindi nilingon ang tawag niya. bakit nga ba? ehhehe. di ko na maalala. basta alam ko. nagpapalambing lang ako. hahaha. akala niya tuloy umiiwas ako. nako. bakit naman ako iiwas.
GEOMETRY CLASS. ewan ko na naman kung bakit hindi ko siya kinakausap at kung bakit hindi ako nagpaturo sakanya. the next thing I knew. I was leaning on the shoulder of jahnomi. crying and telling her the way I feel. and my thoughts.
I cried and cried. until Ms.Nadala asked me to go to the SLO. buti na lang hindi halata na umiiyak ako. :] ayoko sabihin kung bakit ako umiyak. basta it has something to do with my PAST. my bitter past.
after that. I hugged my bestfriend. Lloyd. that was the very 1st time I hugged a guy after my 1st break up. and that was the very 1st time I hugged him. ewan ko. all of the sudden napayakap at napaiyak ako kay lloydie lloyd. He did not comfort me. thats all I can recall. I went out and headed straight to COMP class without my suitor. I just dont want him to see me crying. crying because of my PAST.
hanggang sa BEC ndi kami nagpansinan ni suitor. thats what made him think na iniiwasan ko siya. Hindi ako umiiwas. gusto ko lang maliwanagan. PERIOD. uwian na kami nagpansinan. he stayed a little longer. and we talked about the things that should be cleared.
Okay na naman. I explained everything. but I did not tell him the truth. the reason why I cried in GEOM class. ayoko kasing sabihin. baka mahurt siya or something. It is better Left unspoken.
may binigay ako sakanya. NO. may pinatago ako sakanya. maliit na HEART. at sabi ko sakanya. dalin niya un araw-araw. anytime hahanapin ko yun sakanya. kapag nawala un para niya na rin sinabi na wala akong halaga sakanya.at kapag hindi niya dala un kapag hinanap ko sakanya. hindi ko siya papansinin nang buong araw. ang arte noh? pero may plano talaga ako sa heart na yun. this is my challenge for him. :] hehehe. sasabihin ko na lang kung ano ung plano na un kapag nagawa ko na.
then. umuwe na siya. after awhile. umuwe na din ako. hindi niya ako hinatid noh? ayaw ko pa kasi magpahatid eh. saka na lang. kapag. WALA. hehehe. tsaka kasi ung bahay nila sa likod lang nang school. :] tumawag siya sa bahay. pinabago ko ung "love you" nya. sabi ko. love you is totally different from I LOVE YOU. kaya ayon. sabi niya. in a very mahinhin voice.
"I... Love... You..."
oo na. kilig ako ulit. hehehe. gua ai di michael. un lang masasabi ko. hihihi. michael na tawag ko skanya. Charles Michael Co Gaw kasi siya. eh gusto ko unique ako. hehee. gs2 ko naiiba ung tawag ko sakanya. dati inisip ko kung ano ba ang tawag sa lalaking intsik. kung may CHEKWA. ano naman sa lalaki? CHEKWO? ang panget. hehee.. kaya wala akong ibang maisip kungdi ang MICHAEL. ehehhehe. michael co? hehehehe. uyy. middle name nya un. hindi un parang honey co o baby co at kung ano2 pa. hhehehhe.
narinig niya kaya ung sinabi kong.
"mami2ss kita..;]"
sa fone ko un sinabi. hehehe.
sa chat naman. c reinard. pilit akong kinukulit. sagutin ko na daw si suitor.
sabi ko naman. kitty: noh ka ba. ilan araw pa ln xang nanliligaw noh. kitty: 7 days pa ln bading. kitty: ndi dahil gs2 niya ako gs2 ko siya. sa2gutin ko na siya. take it easy and slow. walang dahilan para magmadali. :]kitty: tsaka. pa2hirapan ko muna siya. ahihihi.. JOKE! kitty: hahaha.. dont rush me. or should I say dont rush us. ehhehe. kitty: haaay nako. basta. right time will come. thats how my day ended. malungkot na masaya. :]
pinkaLoo just posted her thoughts!
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Real Name: Mary Angelbelle S. Dizon
Age: 17
Birth Date: September 19, 1992
School: Centro Escolar University
Course: Dentistry
I am Mary Angel but call me Ella. My BLOG documents my Bittersweet Life as a University Student, an intimidating Friend, a Loving Daughter, a Sweet Girlfriend and an Independent G I R L. This is my Web Journal where in all my thoughts, craves, rants and happenings in my life are posted. Constructive Criticism are highly appreciated! ♥
University Student ○ I am currently taking up DENTISTRY which is one of the difficult and the most expensive majors. At first, It was hard dealing with college life, the subjects along with the lessons and its quizzes and projects and of course, the professors and the grades, block mates and the school itself. but as the days go by all the pressure and pleasure, fun, hardships, trials and updates about being a College Student have a sense of fulfillment in the end! :)
Intimidating Friend ○ What is Friend? For me Friend is someone you have that knows how to deal with your drama in life. Someone who accepts you for who you are, Someone who isn't afraid of telling you your wrong doings, Someone who will never turn their back in spite of your mood swings and attitude problems. Someone who will always settle things with you. That's how I define FRIEND. You? How do you define FRIENDSHIP?
Loving Daughter ○ I love my family so much. They are the foundation of my own self. I am the eldest among the family. At this point of time, Pressure of being the eldest do not conquer me, YET. When I was younger, my grandmother nurtured me and took care of me when my Mom was away and still, nurturing and taking care of me at this point of time even Mom is already here for us. I owe my grandmother so much. Though I was spoiled by her in many ways and sometimes unintentionally made things difficult for her because of my wrong doings I still go back and make it up to her. She became a Mother, a Father and a Grandmother to me all at the same time. She's my inspiration in life.
Sweet Girlfriend ○ Oh yes, I am into a long term relationship right now, with my Best Friend. You read it right. Best Friends turned Lovers. Being in love with your best friend is good and easy and being in a relationship with your Best friend isn't better but the BEST! Friendship is a very good foundation of LOVE and I am very much happy to have a relationship with friendship as a foundation but of course, just like any love, Trials and Challenges still come along our way but everything's worth it.
Mary Angelbelle Dizon.
My Dad once told me how they got my name. He said, When mom was laboring, He prayed to Mama Mary and the Angels for Mom's guidance. That's how I got, Mary Angel, from Mama Mary and the Angels and the Belle? Well, Dad said he got that from Mom's name: Bel.
Yes I know, I have a very long name. Haha.
Ella.
For the obvious fact that I have a very long name, I had difficulty choosing a name to call me, a nickname. Before it was Belle, then it turned to Elle and finally, I settled for one, ELLA. I love that name ever since. It was hard convincing people to call me Ella because they are all used to call me ANGEL but I know they'll get used to it. :)
- I was born 10:36 am at Olivarez Hospital, Paranaque.
- Christened at St. Andrew Church, Paranaque.
- I am the Eldest Child.
- I am the Eldest Grandchild.
- I am the Eldest Great Grandchild.
- I have no full siblings. - Unica Hija of my Parents but I have siblings on both sides now. :)
- I have two handsome brothers and one pretty sister ( Maternal ). - named Simon, Samuel and Sarah. I love them so much!
- I have a beautiful mother. - Of course, kanino pa ba ako magmamana? :)
- I have a boyfriend. - named Lloyd Philip Hamilton-brown Frilles. He's my bestfriend before he became my boyfriend. Cool right? :D
- Primary: El Nino de Salambao Academy, Paranaque
- Elementary: ENDSA and MES, BES.
- High School: PNHS, Angelicum College, Quezon City
- Academic and Special Awards: Best in Art (Kinder), Best in Science (Elementary) 1st runner up Miss Agham (Elementary), Most Courteous (Elementary), 2nd honorable mention (Elementary), Two 4th honorable mention (Elementary). (I had no awards in High school, AC is a non graded institution. )
- College: Centro Escolar University, Manila - Taking up Dentistry and currently on my 2nd year.
- Independent - I take care of myself, alone.
- Optimistic - I see things on the bright side whenever I have a problem.
- Sweet - I am sweet when it comes to the people I care about. So dont get me wrong.
- Loving - as much as possible I try showing my love but when I dont see anything in return, I might bounce back.
- Sarcastic - I use this to defend my self.
- Frank - When you get into my nerves I could tell the most hurtful word to you. " I say what I mean and mean what I say. "
- Vain - Well, I guess its just a part of being a GIRL.
- Stubborn - Yes. Very Stubborn and Bossy. I want what I want. ( You can ask my mom.)
- Dancer - I love dancing ever since. I just dont have that much passion to get into it.
- Wild - Wild in a sense that I am game for anything. :)
- Spoiled - I was spoiled when I was younger. Before, My grandparents almost give everything I want and need and that was lots of love! I am still spoiled right now, by Lloyd.
- Bitch - I hate people who hurts people's feelings. I stand up for them and that makes me a bitch to you.
- Opinionated - Beware: My opinion contains sarcasm, well not all the time. :D
- Health Freak - I am very much concern when it comes to my body. My hate list includes: Alcohol and Smoke, any kind of smoke.
- Confident - I believe Confidence is one of the most important attitudes of being a person without it you cannot achieve what you want.
- Loud - Only with my friends!
- Moody - Yes, Especially PMS days. My mood swings to one mood to another. At least, Lloyd can handle it. : p
- Sporty - I play badminton. I love swimming and hiking.
- Hard chick - I kick ass! : p
- Outgoing - Is wild and outgoing the same? :D
- Elegant - Simple yet Elegant, that's me! :D
- Mean - Yes, especially if you are also mean to me. I am meaner.
- High Maintenance - Very. Especially when it comes to myself. I have a high standard to the point that people get mad at me because of how I act. I just love myself so much, you know.
- Bestfriends turned Lovers - We were best friends for more than 2 years before we actually had love feelings for each other. The feeling was mutual.
- It wasn't easy - It was really hard because I had a current relationship back then. The story? Here.
- Months of Trials and Hardships - Before we moved in to the next stage, We went through ups and downs to finally be together and I gave him so much challenges to prove himself to me. It was really hard because I was always misunderstood by people and sadly, my own friends for giving him hard time and extreme difficulties and for the fact that my grandmother wont approve to our relationship that time made it all worst but later, my grandmother did understood me.
- April 29, 2009 - We became Official. :) I finally ended all his miseries. ( As if it was very hard. Hahaha ) The story? Here.
- Blissful - For me, A relationship with your best friend is the most blissful relationship. It maybe hard for us at the start but the reward of trials and hardships is incomparable. Why? Its all because of FRIENDSHIP! The foundation of your love is friendship. I tell you, In a relationship like this you have to be open and optimistic. Just like any relationship, this also have downfalls but if you think ahead and look into the brighter side you can surpass anything that gets into your way. Remember: Do not get afraid of committing just because you are afraid of losing the friendship. You have to take the risk if you want to be happy. Truly HAPPY. :)
PERSONAL.
- My Family - My Dad, Mom, Simon, Sarah, Samuel and my Grandmother. :)
- Lloyd! ♥
- Pancho - My 4 year old mini pincher. He's my baby dog!
- Hello Kitty - I love her ever since. GAAAH. Give me more kitties.
- Butterflies
FOOD.
- Dimsum
- Sushi
- Pasta
- Bulalo
- Beef Steak
- Sarsa Iglesia
- Buttered Crab and Shrimp
- Corn
- Mango and Strawberry
- Desserts
- Anything that my lola cooks. ♥
TECHY.
- Cybershot Camera
- iPhone
iPod
Underwater Camera
PSP
Nokia N70
- Laptop
- Subaru Impreza WRX or Mazda 3
PLACES.
- My Bedroom - My heaven.
- Puerto Galera
Cebu - Lived here for three years.
Bohol - I saw dolphins here! :)
- Palawan
Hongkong - I love ocean park.
- Japan - Madaming Hello kitty dito!! GAAAHH.
- Korea
- Paris
- Enchanted Kingdom - 1st anniversary plan. ♥
- Cockroaches - as in capital I-P-I-S!
- Pollution - Pollution makes me poor. I waste all my money for a taxi fare just because I hate smokes so much. It gives me headache. Grrr. Cant the authorities do something about it?
- Cigarette's smoke - Nahihilo ako.
- Dance Club - Not that I hate dancing and mingling with people. I just hate loud music. It gives me migraine.
- Coward - People who cant even face me. As in face to face and just keep on talking behind my back are pathetic.
- Walk out - I hate it how people walk out when they are face to something they cant stand.
I know this is pretty long but still,
I'm happy I was able to express myself in words. :D
- Ella Dizon
" Doll Outside, Devil Inside. "
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Ella. εїз 17. Independent. Virgo. Eldest. Taken. Escolarian. Optimistic. Sweet. Frank. Vain. Spoiled. Opinionated. Confident. Loud. Moody. Outgoing. Girly. Elegant. Mean.
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i am irresponsible.
SAS seminar. my suitor.
unsaid feelings for HIM.
ordinary day.
wish list.
A great recovery.
edits.
iF i had just took it seriously.
all of my effort had lead into NOTHING.
nursing thought. nationalism.
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